This week a man was given his life back. He has been in
prison for 20 years for crimes he did not commit. It is said that he will get
compensation, although it is hard to see what will compensate for the loss of
20 years of a person’s life and with it, presumably, friends, family, career
and reputation.
What do people who are wrongfully imprisoned dream of
during their years of mental, physical and emotional deprivation? It must take
a while to even get to the stage of dreaming. Perhaps you give up in the end
and simply try to survive on what little you have in the way of personal
resources – the resources which enable you to believe in yourself and in the possibility
that justice will be done. Perhaps you dare not hope, because hope embodies a
kind of certainty. It is about looking forward to something that you are
certain is going to happen, in the way only children know how to do. Years of
captivity can grind away such innocence.
If we retain enough of our childhood innocence we will
not have quite forgotten how to hope. There is an excitement about hope which
moves us forward and teaches us to see the goodness in others. Hope, and the
certainty it promises, derives from the love which is its source. Looking
forward to something good is a quite different feeling to what is experienced
when, sadly, we relish the moment in the future when someone will get their
just deserts, or when we will be finally vindicated at someone else’s expense.
These things may well happen, but the moment, when it comes, will feel hollow.
The difficulty about hope is that the things we look
forward to with eagerness, joy and even a degree of trepidation, do not always
happen, or work out in the way we had thought they would. So there is always
the risk of pain. Daring to hope is also being willing to accept pain and even disappointment.
Dealing with disappointment is the risk we take when we dare to hope in the
fullest sense of the word.
For many children Advent is a season of eager
expectation, having mainly to do with looking forward to receiving Christmas
presents. For others it is not. The presents are spoiled by circumstances;
fighting parents, the death of someone they love, the looming cloud of debt
which is part of the reason that their parents are fighting. The looking
forward ends in anxiety and sometimes fear.
Advent is the season for a ‘looking forward’ which never
disappoints. If we engage with it as the beginning of God’s fulfilled promise,
we will not be left stranded on the rock of disappointment, or returned to
ourselves as we were before we began to look forward to the fulfillment of the
promise.
The best of our usual expectations often return us to
ourselves, not because we are selfish or unimaginative, but because so often
there is nothing much beyond whatever it is we are looking forward to. Hope
embodies the promise that there is something greater and better than what we
know of ourselves, something that can make a positive difference to the lives
of others. Hope embodies the idea that we are valued and capable of immense
goodness.
The Christian story is good news because it allows for
the possibility that our expectations can be transfigured, including the often
limited expectations we have of ourselves. So the good news of the coming of
God’s Christ obliges us to live in such a way as to be bearers of hope. As hope-bearers
we give others permission to act and think from the goodness within them, even
if that goodness is not at all apparent. The hope which is given to us in the season
of Advent requires that we shine a light into their darkness and into the
darkness which surrounds us, so that goodness, or ‘righteousness’ may be
released into it.
This is one aspect of the activity of prayer – holding the
world and our neighbour in their darkness until they emerge into the light. Anyone
who has traveled by air will know the feeling of emerging into bright sunlight
when the plane, as it takes off, finally penetrates the grey of the place they
left behind. The hope promised us in Christ takes us, and all for whom we pray,
through the dark realities which surround us and into that place of light.
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