A couple of weeks before Christmas our old dog, Molly,
had to be put down. She had enjoyed a good life in every sense. She was good
and she made our lives good. Dogs seem to be gifted with ‘goodness’. Perhaps
other species are as well, but seldom in such an uncomplicated way as dogs. Dogs
know about trust and they know how to endure, for the sake of those they love,
all kinds of unwarranted and unexpected situations. For Molly, one such
situation entailed being in a car with her owner for more than 10 hours in
freezing temperatures. A few inches of snow had fallen on the M11, back in 2003, causing gridlock, but together they
endured the situation by sharing a sleeping bag which he happened to have with
him in the back of the car.
Dogs oblige you to share your life with them, whether or
not you realise it. Sharing one’s life with the dog (and they leave us little
choice in the matter) is not like the sharing involved in any human
relationship. There is a certain amount of ‘taking for granted’ which is OK
between us and dogs, but which might not be OK in other family relationships.
The reason for this is that dogs only understand what they choose to
understand. They only understand what
adds to the sum total of the goodness of the arrangement which you have with
them. This is what I have discovered through sharing my study with two dogs.
Over the years, we have had seven dogs and, with the
demise of Molly, we have just acquired an eighth, although he is still with his
mother and two of his siblings for the time being. I have agreed with my
husband that the new dog can be based with him, in his office, but I doubt the
arrangement will last. I do not think that he realises, as yet, that no amount
of complaining will persuade a dog that his or her presence can at times be
unpleasant, from a purely odorific point of view. Or that sudden barking is
both uncalled for and distracting, as is snoring, loud lapping of water and
other licking sounds. But I would not be without them. Their goodness, despite
the practical drawbacks of having them in the same room, aids the creative
process.
It is also a constant reminder of how God’s own goodness
is revealed in the sheer doggishness of dogs.
As a result, talking to the dogs leads into prayer and prayer sustains
creativity, although the dogs are quite unaware of any of this, believing that
one is talking only to them in an oddly passionate and grateful way. Their
response is to lie back, paws in the air, lips slightly flapping to reveal some
magnificent teeth, and eyes half closed in something resembling bliss. Since
Molly died I have started reading poetry to our remaining dog. She is
enthusiastic but, sadly, quite uncomprehending, although she listens and stares
intently. I sense that she is trying to make up for her friend’s absence, and
for her own loss, by being even more of a dog than she already is, out of
loyalty and devotion. She met the new dog yesterday and seemed more or less
indifferent to him which is a sign of approval, of the relentless forward
movement of life and of the goodness of God.
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